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February 11, 2010 @ 8:01 pm

Leaving On A Jet Plane

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I’m going to fly, tomorrow night, for the first time since I was a teenager.  I’m a little unsure of just what to expect, but I’m very excited anyway, because I’ll be seeing my SS when I get off the plane at the other end.  ♥

It’s my first visit to her neck of the woods.  I’ll be there for the weekend, to celebrate her birthday and Valentine’s Day and to meet her folks (and my step-cat, too, Mr. Man Cat!).

Not only have I not flown in many years, but I have not seen snow in even more years.  The last time I saw snow, not counting two or three times that we’ve had flurries here in Florida in the 38 years (oops – edit: make that 39 years) I’ve lived here, was when I was not quite 7, I believe, if I’ve got the math right.  It was a long, long time ago, anyway.  Long enough that I never had any occasion to drive in snow.  Long enough that I am clueless about many things that those who live in colder climates are accustomed to, for instance why it was funny when an employee at Home Depot told SS the other day that someone had come in and asked, “Is there any product I can use on my snow blower to stop the snow from sticking to the blades?”

I was quiet for a beat and finally said, “So, does that mean the answer is no?”

I don’t know these things.  I grew up in Florida.  I know how to prepare for a hurricane; not a blizzard.  I didn’t even own an actual coat until a couple weeks ago.  Well, I had coats as a kid, when my mom made me wear them, but I haven’t owned one in years.  A heavy jacket or sweater has been enough, most of the time, along with my little pair of Mickey Mouse stretchy gloves from Disney World.

So this will be fun.

I’m going to build a snowman, if there is still enough snow on the ground by Saturday.  I’ll take lots of pictures.

The Weather Channel web site says it’s going to be 19 degrees when I land tomorrow night.

Wow.

So, the last time I flew, I was not only much younger, but also much smaller.  I have two seats for this trip.  I’m going to have to ask for a seat belt extender.  Of course, I’m glad I know this going in, and haven’t for some reason managed to go all these years not knowing that large people and airplane seats have difficulties coming together, but the part of me that still cringes at the memory of the things other kids said way back when, in my school years, is hoping that nobody points and laughs.  Or, better yet, that I won’t be the only large person on the flight, sitting in two seats, using a seat belt extender.

Way more than my fear of embarrassment, though, or my uncertainty over “what to do” and “where to go” at the airport (I know exactly where to go to pick someone up, but will have to be directed when it comes to flying, myself), and even more than the consistent hum of anxiety I’ve been feeling this week at home and at work (the anxiety over my list of things I need to do before tomorrow, and whether I’ll forget something of dire importance), I’m enjoying the excitement of stepping out of the predictable place I’ve kept myself for the last several years.  I’m stretching my wings.  I’m traveling to someplace further than a couple-hour car trip can take me.  I’m going to see snow again, and build a snowman, and see a few sights I’ve never seen before.  And best of all, I’m going to spend a weekend with SS, and that makes me very, very happy.

3 Comments

  1. Comment by kate1975:

    I hope your flight went well and that you are able to make a snowman or snowwoman. 🙂

    Hope you have a great visit.

    Kate

  2. Comment by birdonthewire2008:

    Hooray! I hope by the time I’m typing this that you are both having a fabulous time… building snowpeople and sharing love.

  3. Comment by lifeischange:

    Thank you, Kate and Bird! Yep, we had a great time, and we did build a snow woman. 🙂 My post about it is almost done and will be published soon, complete with lost of pictures.

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